Right Now

My head is aching and I want to break something I think I might be falling to depression again pain in the head pain pain head blow pieces fall apart not in my head perhaps my fault I just want to stop it to blow it away sorry if I didn't want to 挨拶　you but I just don't care enough anymore just please stop the pain please blow it away get it off my head I'm not even sleepy god damn it.

I'm missing you my friend and I'm being too weak.

I'm just not doing what my head is telling me to do. But then who the fuck am I listening to. This is leading me nowhere good. Got to stop this but can't find the strength to.

お風呂で考えていたこと

苦しくなった時点でやめてもしょうがない。　苦しいのを耐えてこそ勝負。